Lets be real: this was probably the biggest football game I will ever experience
I am no football expert, nor am I really a huge football fanatic but even I was quite aware of what amazingness that was going on. I knew that the FSU vs OU game was going to be big, but I was not prepared. Not prepared at all.
Apparently when the number 5 school (FSU) plays the number 1 school (OU), everyone and their mother comes to Tallahassee to see.
Examples of the craziness
– There was not one piece of garnet or gold clothing in any of the stores at the local mall
– It then took my 45 minutes to get home from the mall. it usually take maybe 18.
– The wait for a cab on Friday night was at least an hour. (I found my way to Domino’s to wait it out in a freaking tutu [thats a story for another day])
So game day came.
College game day hit FSU in a big way. Boyfriend and friends had their six hours of fame while I ran my long run. um, hello 5.5 Miles. beast status. hoping crossing the finishing line at the half will be more fulfilling then being on ESPN like everyone else.
Luckily after running my little heart out I was able to participate in tailgating festivities.
And even though after
drinking tailgating for six hours, I felt like this
I still put on a happy face and my best FSU chop
and cheered louder than ever.
Sadly my cheers went unanswered and FSU put up a good fight but could not win the game. Still love the ‘Noles though and one football game (okay, one HUGE) football game wont change that!
Update on Operation: Eat Normal
This is incredibly more difficult than I could describe. It seems that on a daily basis I am struggling to control my eating and try to be normal. I am not grasping it.
Part of my dilemma is the conflicting information out there. As an avid reader and researcher, I have read every article there is about how to properly fuel for training and I am more confused than ever.
Do I count calories, fat grams, protein grams or not at all?
Do I journal everything I eat?
Do I drink my protein shake as a lunch or as a snack?
Do I keep starchy carbs around as they are a trigger food or do I keep them out of my house?
Do I try to diet or is this setting me up for binges?
The other part is that there is Ed using all of this to put me down. To tell me I am no where strong enough to do this. Its hard not to believe him whenever every night I either feel completely ashamed by what I ate or completely unsure if it is nutritionally enough. I feel defeated when it comes to this and wonder if I truly recovered “correctly”. I don’t feel like I have a normal relationship with food and I worry that I will carry this on. I worry about truly gaining more and more weight and not being able to stop but just continuing to feel horrible in my own body.
So my question is:
How do you truly recover and eat, deal with, enjoy food normally?